Lose...to Gain

I just recalled a conversation I had with my 'barber' a few months back. After wearing my hair long (locs) for over 5 years, I did the big 'chop'. Many people were shocked...even those I wasn't even aware were in loooove with my thick, healthy locs that were always nicely groomed...were quite affected by this move. My barber asked me if I did a wardrobe change and I chuckled, "no, why do you ask?" He said, "...well those 2 normally go hand in hand with ladies. They change their hair style and they also do a total makeover...wardrobe etc." I said to him "nope, just the usual for me." In that moment what I didn't say to him was something I myself only realized after I cut my hair...

...this strong sense of empowerment and well-being overcame me after going through with it.

I had thought of changing my hair for quite some time, yet I always held back. I wrestled with ,"will I be gorgeous?" ..."Will I be gorgeous"... "will I regret it?" ..."will it ever grow back!?"...

Today I wear my 'same' clothes but I feel so different ...Like someone new, my stride is different. I wear my clothes and my demeanour with more confidence than I have done in quite a few years past. So the truth is when I cut my hair, I didn't change my wardrobe. I lost my hair...and I gained this surge of confidence in self. In going through with that decision, something shifted in me and I 'gained' more than I 'lost'...

...of course there are days when I long to do an 'upsweep ' :-)