Dear X, Love Y

Dear X,

It was good to hear your voice & see you yesterday. You looked a bit different ...in a good way. I hope you are doing your best to take care of yourself. Don't beat up on yourself too hard because of what has happened in your life recently. Look up as much as you can, despite the uncertainties surrounding you.

The fact that so much came out of me so freely yesterday, is not so much holding things in but wanting to share with you things that you never knew. Things of which I felt ashamed and unsure before, things I never felt comfortable sharing. I guess I am trying to really show you what the years before were like, to put it all open. I have forgiven and I am working on forgiving myself; that is the bit that is taking a little longer.

I am way more reserved than I used to be. I am trying to be less so, so I can truly give myself another chance at falling openly and being super arms wide open with someone else. I tell you openly as is because with few persons am I able to do so, without me thinking they are going to judge me. I struggle with my own battles, wondering if I am being selfish by going after my dreams rather than stick around in a place/position where I am not fulfilled.

I must be honest and say clearly, God has consistency been providing for me, especially these past few years. And without I doubt I know he will continue to do so. He will supply my 'needs' and I will focus on that and not heap worries on my head. He will take care of you too, X. Look around you and see that your needs are always being met...and will continue to be so.

Work hard, stay positive ...and feel my love for you.

❤ Y