Coming full circle

I remember trying so hard to fit into a regular office environment, trying (yet miserably failing) to reflect what many see as being productive, achieving, and advancing, to work toward that job title, leadership role and that office... then taking a leap of faith and stepping away from the clients I loved, a very fast paced environment, the possibility of bonuses, and a comfortable 'stable' income, to embrace scholarship. Many days, when I compare my 'shoestring budget', when all my research 'balls' are up in the air and refuse to line up, I do find myself questioning this decision, even wondering if I was a fool to do this, being young and all but not a spring chicken like so many of my peers who surround me ...then I catch a glimpse of a smile on my face as I am poring over an article and knew I had made the right decision. Yes, I am sure next week I will find myself doing this whole contemplating thing again but I hope to have the same 'yes' moment.